;

How does it feel

to have a steel run through your skin

so pierced that made your blood drips 

To feel the sting

the real pain masking the ache and uneasiness in your chest

Is it good? 

Is it addictive?

Are you willingly able to wipe the pouring drips

everytime you're feeling like doing it? 

Does the pain overpowers the one that hurts you inside?

I want to know how does it feel as my fear of blood could never, 

the guilt that kills me everytime seeing blood escapes my skin

the fear of hurting this body i live in overtops the desire to have that feel

Pain, rush, horror, regret.

Because I could never, and I would never. 

Even if it feels good even for a second

That would take me away for eternity

As I wished.