Modern Youth

 Our second year of isolation is ending, the early ones did not go well with me though, I guess.

I started to listen to myself more now, and I have never felt happier. Looking back at how much I neglected my own voices for the sake of my reputation, no wonder I lived miserably. Things I used to enjoy doing that gave me adrenaline rush through opinionated people are now drained the hell out of me. I am tired of that and I have figured some other alternatives to fill my adrenaline capacity throughout the day. 

I am taking a break on a few of my social accounts and again, never felt happier. To keep in touch with everyone everyday is energy killer. It feels like I am in an imaginary crowd of noisy people whenever I opened those platforms. I can still hear the noise in my head while typing this. Some of my friends questioned me every time I told them I am on a break on mentioned platforms and all I could respond was a smile emoji. I don't think that I need to explain everything to everyone, which could possibly lead to more conversations and judgements.

And again, just by thinking of it made me tired. Let me take a breath for a sec and continue writing.

Okay,

Opinionated people is essential, but giving and seek opinions on everything is not. It's exhausting when you are trying to do things based on what everyone says even on the tiniest details. Reputation is important, but to be on the top list of reasons you losing your sanity and declining health is really worth it?

I used to question some celebrities back then when they decided to slow down or stop doing things they excel at, wanting to live normally out of sight and let their ratings drop like, 'what's on their mind?'

I now see that they started to listen to themselves making the decision to stay healthy. Because after all, peace of mind is all you need and a reputation is just what others see through you. Your results, images, behavior, everything except struggles. 

To connect this to my situation is that my image started to get bad towards some people, my reputation on some aspects started to rot. But on a bright side, I don't need to seek approval on others about everything anymore, I don't have to keep up on some conversations anymore and I am less addicted to my phone. If this is not a good thing ever happened to me, I don't know what is.